Friday, June 18, 2010


I have had to repeat the serenity prayer to myself several times today. Every time I see a mother at the park with her child, especially her daughter, I find myself wishing that were Emily and I. I know she is much happier where she is today than she would be if she were here with me. And I know that someday we will be reunited. The journey between here and there has been six and a half years now. Emily would turn six this week if she had lived and I had carried her to term. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.

1 comment:

  1. i find myself wishing, when i see a mother and her three or more children, that xavier were still here and i was not on this journey that God has sent me on. by the way, have you ever seen the entire serenity prayer?

    here it is...
    God, give us grace to accept with serenity
    the things that cannot be changed,
    Courage to change the things
    which should be changed,
    and the Wisdom to distinguish
    the one from the other.
    Living one day at a time,
    Enjoying one moment at a time,
    Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
    Taking, as Jesus did,
    This sinful world as it is,
    Not as I would have it,
    Trusting that You will make all things right,
    If I surrender to Your will,
    So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
    And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
    Amen. [by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)]

    i like your blog! i look forward to supporting you on this journey that none of us would wish on our worst enemy! *HUGS*